EMotional

HEy dis two daes have been emotional daes for me.Ever since i watched two emo dvd for two daes - "Turn Left Turn Right" N "A Walk to remember" been thinking like alot.
Nurul - a girl I once like,love ever since saw her back in sec school days.I knoe i shouldn't give up just like dat but i Did and been few months since last contact her.Well i thought emm lets's move on with life .So found dis gerl, a gerl i kinda like.And i thought oh god dis will be a new chapter in my life BUT somehow when i thought i had forgotten abt nurul , and when i think of the person being with me at my darkest time well It not the current gerl but Nurul.Why Why am i keep thinking of her when i want to erase her out of my mind. How i can make u realize how important u are to me and y am i lying to myself dat i wanna forget u Y?Y?.I may be able to erase ur appearance from my life but i can't seems to bury the feeling i had.

But then wat abt dis gerl i currently like is my feelings for her false/true or just a replacement for nurul?Well Hari raya is comin and i knoe i will somehow met u nurul but how am i gonna face u?CAn i go on with my life without u and having another gerl at my side?
I don't knoe, confused and entrapped in a cage full of question.Questions myself won't want to answer cos either way it be painful.