Turmoil

==- MESS WITH THE BEST DIE LIKE THE REST -==
WEll i don't knoe wat the hell been happening to me can't think right and often feel at loss.Once there was a dae where my mind suddenly blank and i can't just think of anything not even sweety and even nurul.it was as if my mind is rejecting.Guess wat there's was once lst week where i had a dream of which i was in a bus back home and the bus was passing by clementi and the streets was filled with dead bodies and i soon panicked.When i got home i was horrified of the situation and when i was peaking out the window there was mist all over.Is dooms dae comin soon????? i don't knoe.

Sometimes in life u just want to rectify an error by building a new program all over again.And dat happen to me how i wish i could just have a family and build a home all by myself.A family where i could rectify all those errors dat i encountered previously.I could truthfully says dat if there is a gerl dat i found and she's the one and in any case if she ask me " if i ask u to marry me now would u? " I would say yes i will" but then i would ask her dis " if i would to be poor, disabled or if anything were to happen to us would u be there with me? The road dat we goin to take will surely be a rough one would u able to do dat ? cos i do". Simply say dat if i found a right gerl and dat gerl can satisfy wat i expect of her, i would even quit dis damn skool and get on with life cos life nvr stop unless u want it to be.

Yest i don't knoe wat came over me. I just feel dat i want to go out and just meet sweety and say to her hey could i see u later? hahaaha but i didn't life is a joke ahhh.I guess i'm not ready yet for her.My heart says dat i should go but my mind doesn't.Can i get u sweety i don't knoe but i will try cos i won't want to feel regret later on.Well make a decision just now well nurul came online after so long mths she finally log in but guess wat i choose not to msg her and move on.I hope i'm making aright moves cos after all life is a gamble